By Beleaf in Fatherhood
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As you guys know last week our children encountered their first racial experience. Yvette and I are trying to navigate it even though we feel like we’re being silenced. Obviously we can’t get into too much of it so this will be our last Time speaking about it unless it happens again.
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all right here we go welcome
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to our safe space
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um my safe space right this is event
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safe space if you
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do not know first of all let’s let’s get
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to the point
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right yes i’m gonna introduce myself
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because some of you guys may be new here
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my name is glenn henry
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um and i go by belief
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the channel is called belief in
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fatherhood this is my lovely wife
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i oh i’m introducing myself my name is
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yvette henry um i go by mrs melanin
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that’s not my rap name or anything it’s
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just who i am i guess
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uh and we are basically going to um
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just kind of discuss how we feel after
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um you know our children had a racial
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experience
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um yeah that’s a better that’s what
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we’re calling it
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yeah okay i think it’s the best way to
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say it uh and so
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i think that after we you know
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we had this experience we put it out and
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the messages we were getting were so
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intense and deep
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and heartfelt in the emails and stuff
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like that
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um but not too many people
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asked how we are doing so i wanted to
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ask
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how are you doing
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i know
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stop no i’m not going to you already did
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i know
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you can edit it out um that’s the
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thumbnail
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go ahead sorry
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how are you um
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i’m not completely well but i am okay
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um there’s so much more
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so it’s like
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but uh you know
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just kind of like going back to thursday
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when that happened and thinking about
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the fact that i was not there
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i think that that um
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that’s kind of like a that’s probably
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like the one thing that’s really
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a bummer to me is that
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it wasn’t something that i could like be
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there present for and for me
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it was just a huge
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i don’t know if you want to call it
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reminder that
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i will not always be able to
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cover my voice like to protect them to
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protect my children
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from all the like hurt and harm that
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they are going to experience
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in the world and when i say hurt or harm
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i mean intentional or otherwise like
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intentional or unintentional um
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but yeah it was
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i’m okay i i i
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am sad that
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the kids had to experience what they
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experienced
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i am um i am proud of
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us like i do believe
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that i don’t know if you guys remember
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but like the conversation that we had
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last summer
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um that we shared with everybody where
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we talked to the boys
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in the garage about you know
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what happened to george floyd to an
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extent that we felt like was appropriate
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for each of their
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age levels at that point and we even
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had the conversation with them
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individually
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so that they could process it how they
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needed to process it in that moment
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and i didn’t want to have that
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conversation
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i was completely not for it
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but but you ended up leading it
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because i wanted to be able to like
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care for their heart in the way that
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they were and the way that the
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information was being shared with them
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and so when we like fast forward from
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that conversation to the conversation
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that we had last week
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about what they experienced at the park
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i was like grateful i was grateful that
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like
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you said babe this conversation has to
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happen
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i was proud of us for having the
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conversation and having it as a point of
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reference
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for the boys so that this time where
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they were experiencing it firsthand
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wasn’t the first time that they were
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having
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a talk like that i was proud of us for
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having literature in our home that
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the boys could or the kids could refer
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back to and be like this book made me
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feel good about my skin can we read that
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right now
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like the fact that theo like at one
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point during the conversation you guys
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can’t see
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that but at one point during the
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conversation i saw theo get
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up from where we were and go look on the
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bookshelf
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for a book and i knew exactly what book
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he was looking for
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and then at some point he was like sew
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it or riot i don’t
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remember who figured it out but they’re
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like soulways away and so
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i helped like i’ve got that book and we
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read it and
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it was just a reminder that like even
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though we look
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different or even though like us in
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particular we have darker skin
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it’s still beautiful and it’s still
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something to be proud of there is still
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like god was purposeful when he chose
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theophilus patrick henry and uriah beau
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henry
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to have the skin that they have
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yeah and just so you like just to
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reiterate too like
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we don’t look different like yeah we
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look
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normal no that’s good you know what i’m
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saying um
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so yeah just to say that and then
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shout out to lupita nuongo because that
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book’s fire
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you know what i mean like yeah i like
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the book i didn’t realize how the book
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was going to help them
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yeah and so you just kind of get these
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books and kind of like yeah all right i
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know that was a little weird but it was
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cool
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yeah and then they’re kind of like nah i
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need that yeah
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so yeah it’s really dope because like
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with books like that at one point in the
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story
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like she shares about how she like would
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try to erase her skin
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or put on her mom’s foundation or
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whatever and so it’s kind of like oh
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shoot this book is kind of putting ideas
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in our children’s head but at the same
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time
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it’s also like it’s those ideas are kind
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of coming to the surface but at the same
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time it’s reaffirming
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um their skin like it’s like well the
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end of the book is like
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she spoiler alert yeah she walks
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in her skin very confidently and loves
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how beautiful she is and
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all those things but i think the the
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highlight there is that she’s comparing
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herself to other people yes which i
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think people do all the time
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the kids compare themselves to each
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other they compare themselves to their
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friends they know the difference between
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hair types and skin color and all that
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stuff
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so yeah like
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i think that um uh
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yeah so i i i’m sorry i didn’t mean to
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interrupt you
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no i i mean that was pretty much it i
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was i’m just like proud
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of the job that we are doing like not
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only do we have those books or did we
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have that talk but
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on a regular basis we affirm our
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children and we walk in our skin proud
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like i think the confidence that we have
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looking the way that we do or
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whatever it’s just like they have that
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and so it just speaks to me like volumes
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the importance of like the nurturing
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that takes place within the home
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and so while i am sad while i am bummed
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um i will tell y’all like on thursday i
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was like man oh man
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like on thursday so it happened i get
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the call from lexi
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the boys get home we have the
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conversation
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and then thursdays are like my night off
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so like i usually just go do whatever i
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want to do i don’t remember what i did
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that thursday oh i think i went to the
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beach
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and probably watched the sunset and i
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think
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that that time like i thought i was okay
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and then i like got a moment to be alone
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and in my thoughts and in my head
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and it just all came like oh shoot
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oh shoot oh shoot and it was like one of
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those things where it’s like
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i can’t protect my i can’t always be
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there to protect my kids
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i have to make sure that they are
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solid in who they are and that they are
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equipped
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for moments such as the one that they
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experienced on thursday
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i was bummed about like
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the fact that a child could say
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something and then um
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that message be relayed to other
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children and it just was like
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like my hope and like you know we just
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experienced this huge uproar in 2020
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and it was like okay people are getting
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enlightened people are waking up
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they’re seeing things for what they are
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they’re like trying to make a difference
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in their homes
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and then it was like oh shoot
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it’s not getting better like my
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six and eight-year-old child
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are like trying to enjoy themselves at a
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playground
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and then this happens and you guys
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like i don’t think that that little boy
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was trying to be malicious
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and i don’t think that his mom like i
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don’t think that his mom
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um taught him that point still got
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across from my children that black
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people were bad you know what i mean
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and so that’s kind of what we’re we’re
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fighting here and so
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i’m sure you guys are enjoying yvette
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just communicate because you guys really
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don’t get to hear her like that you know
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what i mean
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unless you subscribe to you got
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unplugged or you uh
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have been following how married are you
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but this is her space this is the event
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unplugged space which is really just the
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other wall
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in the office um as you can see
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she took a little bit more time getting
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stuff together
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um and so but uh yeah
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the the the go ahead
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how are you doing oh how are you
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i am too strong right now i’m not i
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like i’ve had moments where i’ve kind of
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broken down you know what i mean but
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it’s been like
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i could have used like a good 13-minute
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cry inside but i probably lasted like
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25 seconds um just because they’re
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i mean and i i’ve been dealing with a
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lot for a while
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you know what i’m saying and um i’ve
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been trying to kind of communicate about
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mental health and how like hard it’s
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been
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just from a business owner’s perspective
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in a creative’s perspective
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a husband’s perspective and my father
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but now to be
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um this like community person
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you know what i’m saying to where um
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you know you know i
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my platform um is being looked at weird
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you know what i’m saying like
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i am
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i’m not doing great you know what i’m
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saying but i’ve been worse
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you know what i mean um and that’s not
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that’s not safe like i really miss
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my community of brothers i used to do
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bible study with you know
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um jimmy uh jr
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timothy like you know um javier
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miquel all the homies like i miss like
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getting together with him
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and just talking christian like just
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talking it out
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because that was like a space where it’s
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kind of like hey y’all
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you know what i’m saying we just kind of
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like but we always encourage each other
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we always pray for each other we always
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loved on each other and i miss that
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and like that’s the type of stuff that
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kovac kind of took away in a weird way
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um even though i was kind of like man
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what are we gonna do you know what i
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mean
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yeah i don’t have time for this but now
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i know how valuable yeah
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so um that’s really good to hear you say
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yeah and through like
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you know in therapy i know that like i
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definitely need more outlets
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and even talking to you i’m kind of like
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no you’re not enough i need to talk to
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somebody else
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um and you know i think that’s been
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something that we’ve been
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definitely trying to maneuver through
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but how i’m doing like
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i’m doing okay you know what i’m saying
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um
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you know i’m doing okay uh
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not great you know i’m saying just just
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okay
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and uh i i
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i’m glad i’m very proud of you you know
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what i’m saying i’m proud of um
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you know for you kind of communicating
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know everything you’ve been
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communicating with me in the last few
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days
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um and then being you know open to
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having conversations here and there
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uh but i think at this point
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like i’ve always kind of seen our family
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as like mostly priority
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you know what i’m saying over everything
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else and that to me is that
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this whole experience just kind of
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reaffirms kind of like it’s kind of just
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us
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like we kind of all we got you know what
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i mean um
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so we wanted to kind of discuss
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uh real quick before time runs out
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um how is time going to run out it’s
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only
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yeah we kind of want to discuss real
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quick uh because we
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we do know that this family or we do
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know that the party isn’t involved we’re
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not you know malicious in their intent
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um i think that you know some cool
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things i don’t know if you have notes
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but
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i think some cool things to kind of like
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you know move
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moving forward um one of the messages we
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got from
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the community was like this is exactly
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why i don’t want to bring children into
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this world
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like i don’t as a black parent i do not
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want to have children
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right that was the message we got from
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people
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and so i just want to let you know that
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i feel like it was very important for us
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to share our experience because
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you like have all the tools you need and
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you’re watching us go through it so you
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don’t have to go through it blind
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you know you can say hey i wouldn’t have
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said that i wouldn’t have did this or
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um i would i would have loved to you say
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this or whatever but you can still make
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those decisions
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but i don’t i don’t think you should rob
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yourself
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of um like family
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and children because of stupidity you
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know what i’m saying like
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in ignorance um
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that’s it you know what i mean like i
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think that it’s okay to have children
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you know what i mean and telling
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children the truth is very difficult
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but as you can see with our children
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they are adorable
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and they are fine you know theo actually
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so
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they’re probably the most resilient yeah
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um
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human beings on earth children yeah and
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so like
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you know like even like that same very
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same day theo like
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made his first vlog and uh we posted on
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patreon but
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um theo made his first vlog and it was
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like
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hey guys welcome to my web channel you
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know what i’m saying just like hey guys
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welcome to my web channel i’m about to
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show you
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how we have fun in mom and dad’s room
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okay
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it’s chill and cool and not even like
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tripping
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and so um i think one thing if i could
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do differently
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um throughout this whole thing is you
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know
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i think i would um
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go to the park you know what i’m saying
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like
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i don’t know like i felt like i was very
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in my feelings and like wanting to get
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to the part to solve the problem
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but uh oh you you’re saying you would
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have
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the house oh my gosh guys this man
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like alexi hadn’t even gotten anything
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out he just heard her on the phone
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crying and he already had his shoes and
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was like out the door
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out the door i like was literally on the
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phone with her trying to get information
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and chasing him like come back
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she’s on her way home and uh
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yeah like that was a question because i
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did ask on my own
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social platform i was like what is it
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that you guys still want to know and
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people were asking like how would you
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have handled this situation
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if you were there and i don’t know if
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that’s even
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something we really want to um like
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spend time on but i the crazy thing
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is is like i know for a fact that glenn
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and i would have handled it two
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different ways as well
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like him and i yeah my question to me
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who baby this yeah one of your baby over
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here being uh
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very disrespectful who one of y’all who
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this belonged to if you
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watch um how married are you i think we
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have a whole episode on that who baby
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this
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oh man um
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yeah what about your notes oh
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okay so okay i don’t even know i’m like
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i feel like i could go all over the
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place i really wanted to be more
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organized and how
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we talk to you guys but um
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cicely tyson thank the lord like
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this is another oh my gosh can you see
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it this is another
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example of how important
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it is to be able to tell your story
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um because our children
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had soulway as an example
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you know like they could go back and
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recall that story and they’re like
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you know whatever cicely tyson before
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she died wrote a book
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and i’m gonna read a paragraph to you
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guys just to show
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like just to kind of communicate to you
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some and here and if you watch event
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unplugged y’all know i read a lot so
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here it is um it’s no wonder
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that many african-americans carry a
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lingering distrust of whites
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even those we sincerely love and embrace
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given the horrors of our abuse in this
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nation we are under
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i’m sorry we are understandably wary
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to ever heal these deep racial traumas
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and seldom
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has it felt more urgent than that we do
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we must acknowledge that they
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indeed still exist throbbing and tender
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beneath the surface spilling over like
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molten rage into the streets
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as difficult as it is to recall this
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country’s atrocities
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it is essential that every american of
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every color does
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it is crucial that we connect that
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centuries-long
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ugly history with in our times now a
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cop’s knee on george floyd’s neck
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and bullets riddling brianna taylor’s
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body
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the line from our nation’s original sin
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to its present heartache is not faint
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and dotted it is solid and direct and
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even when the impulse arises to cringe
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and look away from a system predicated
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on black oppression
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a system that is still doing precisely
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what it was designed to do
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we must stare into the face of our past
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and examine what happened here
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on our soul soil much of it less
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than a lifetime ago a lot of it
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happening now turning a blind eye to our
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history has not saved us
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from its consequences okay
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the reason i am sharing this story
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is because i believe that cicely tyson
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gave us a call to action and the call to
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action is to acknowledge the past
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while trying to walk things out in the
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present
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and make things better for the future
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and so with that being said i have had
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many
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conversations with many parents
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who have been like i don’t want to talk
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to my kids about race
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i just want to talk to them about loving
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everybody
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we do too we want to have the same
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conversation we want to have that exact
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same conversation
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however that is impossible it’s
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obviously it’s not something that
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we can really allow to happen yeah so if
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you
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are if you refuse to have the
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conversation that you want it just to be
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about love
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then you’re giving someone else the
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permission to have the conversation
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or what was miscommunicated to them you
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know or what was just heard in passing
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so that’s why it’s important to tell
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people the truth about what you believe
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we’re all preaching
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you know what i’m saying something we’re
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all being proof of what we actually
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believe and so if you believe that like
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love is the key love is the answer and
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all you got to do is operating in love
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well your love better be pretty strong
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when someone says something
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contrary to what you believe and then
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that’s all you got left is just like
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just love them just love them you know
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what i’m saying like sometimes like
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the passiveness of our humanity gets in
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the way
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of like like the loving
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part of who we are you know what i’m
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saying like it gets
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yeah it gets lost in translation you
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know because
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i understand like some people are just
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passive they don’t want to deal with it
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and it’s like
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that’s awesome that’s great for you and
21:08
some people have even said like and my
21:09
parents have never had this conversation
21:11
with me and i turned out fine you know
21:12
what i’m saying
21:13
but did you
21:17
you know what i’m saying or maybe you
21:18
did turn off fine maybe you just never
21:20
had to experience it
21:21
and that’s amazing that’s great but
21:24
more people deal with it than not you
21:25
know we’re not crazy
21:27
and i think too like the the the the
21:30
scary part of like
21:32
not the scary part but the unfortunate
21:34
part of like that
21:35
those people who are like hey my parents
21:36
never had this conversation with me and
21:38
i turned out fine
21:39
is that sometimes when incidents like
21:41
this happen then there is like this lack
21:44
of empathy
21:45
yeah for someone who experiences it
21:48
that’s privilege
21:48
yeah and so sometimes like
21:50
miscommunication
21:52
i mean sorry mis communication and false
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or
21:55
like what did you call it whatever can
21:58
leave people hurt
22:00
and that hurt needs to be validated that
22:02
hurt needs to be acknowledged
22:04
and like i just think that these types
22:07
of conversations can kind of help
22:10
i mean empathy alone but here’s the
22:12
thing is i don’t think it’s
22:13
other people’s possibility to validate
22:15
our feelings like i think we need to
22:16
stop
22:17
like trying to make sure like hey you
22:19
hurt me like
22:21
cool you stay over there like this is
22:23
what i’m this is what i believe
22:25
in my soul okay tell us babe
22:29
right love does not mean access
22:32
ooh give me my keep your love on book
22:35
love does not mean access if you love me
22:37
that doesn’t mean you could be around me
22:38
keep your level and it says level work
22:41
you know what i’m saying mm-hmm and
22:47
forgiveness my sister and i were talking
22:49
oh my gosh
22:50
forgiveness does not mean trust spitting
22:52
bars can we take a moment snap fingers
22:54
love does not mean access and
22:56
forgiveness does not mean trust say it
22:58
again baby
22:58
one more time one more time love does
23:00
not mean access and forgiveness does not
23:02
mean trust and that’s it so
23:03
if you just because i love you you know
23:06
i’m saying that doesn’t mean that you
23:08
have a right to know me
23:09
you have a right you know i’m saying if
23:10
you like that doesn’t mean that you
23:12
better tell them
23:13
you don’t have to be in we don’t have to
23:14
be in community together you’re not
23:15
saying no none of that amen brother and
23:17
even if i forgive you that doesn’t mean
23:18
you still have the right to come into my
23:20
life and do the same thing like you do
23:22
not
23:23
i don’t trust you i forgive you you know
23:25
i’m saying there’s no
23:26
hard feelings and all that you know but
23:29
i can’t like allow you back into my life
23:31
to do it again
23:32
you know what i’m saying so um okay and
23:35
and
23:36
all that to say like if you’re a white
23:37
parent and you are trying to have this
23:39
conversation and navigate it just know
23:41
that
23:41
uh you know you don’t have to take my
23:43
advice you know i
23:44
i i don’t have to be anybody to you but
23:46
i do feel like there you know are some
23:48
tips you know what i mean like we
23:49
suggest
23:50
just like we did with our children not
23:52
having
23:53
um the conversation in a group so if
23:55
you’re gonna talk about race i think you
23:57
should have it at an
23:58
age appropriate level when we talked up
24:00
to our children
24:01
about uh you know george floyd and all
24:04
the stuff that happened with
24:05
uh that whole time um last year
24:09
um it was very traumatizing for
24:10
everybody you know what i’m saying
24:12
but we still had the conversation
24:14
separately even though our kids are 17
24:16
months apart
24:17
there are different maturity levels so
24:19
we had to make sure they were able to at
24:21
least
24:21
ask any clarifying questions that they
24:23
wanted to ask
24:24
i’m so sorry to interrupt but i feel
24:26
like even if they are twins
24:28
the way that we as individuals process
24:30
information is different
24:32
and so i think having the conversations
24:34
individually with your children
24:36
no matter what age they are or whatever
24:38
is
24:39
valuable like glenn and i are we process
24:41
things differently
24:43
we are now adults so we could probably
24:45
have a conversation
24:46
in a group but for children i do think
24:50
it is important to be mindful of that
24:51
part too
24:52
you know also if your children happen to
24:54
come across this
24:56
or see this or this happens to them
25:00
i would like really just give them the
25:02
length and time
25:04
to just communicate all of their
25:05
feelings and just wait till they stop
25:07
talking wait till they stop asking
25:08
questions
25:09
i think that’s one thing i didn’t know
25:11
we were doing but we just always were
25:12
kind of just kind of like we’re going to
25:13
sit here
25:14
stop everything and just sit here and
25:16
talk until we figure this out
25:17
um so like that tuesday whatever that
25:20
day on thursday
25:21
i had basically like canceled whatever i
25:23
was about to do it’s like okay that’s
25:24
what i’m focusing on today
25:26
um and that lets the kids know like hey
25:29
like i’m stopping for you because this
25:30
is very important
25:31
that was one of my big fears about
25:35
you know like sending us kids to school
25:37
and it
25:38
originally was kind of like you know if
25:40
my child was to ask why am i black
25:42
the teacher don’t got time to answer
25:44
that you know what i’m saying like those
25:46
are real questions you know
25:47
and so like for that one reason alone is
25:50
kind of like
25:50
you don’t get the permission to tell
25:52
yeah i’m saying
25:54
and here’s another thing man like really
25:56
important
25:57
for us as a community protect your
25:59
energy
26:00
not everyone deserves your ear not
26:03
everyone deserves your attention
26:05
you know what i’m saying so don’t allow
26:07
people
26:08
the space to communicate with you if
26:10
they are not safe you know what i’m
26:11
saying like
26:12
i think you need to be a safe haven for
26:14
your children and yourself
26:16
everybody does not need to know your
26:17
story and i feel like we’re taking a lot
26:19
of shots
26:21
you know so that you don’t have to you
26:23
know what i mean
26:24
and not so much like trying to put
26:25
ourselves up on a pedestal but man it’s
26:27
real out here like this is not easy for
26:30
us to navigate through
26:31
you know what i mean um so i would just
26:33
really protect yourself and just know
26:35
that like
26:36
yo some people you know what i’m saying
26:40
some people you know i’m saying that
26:41
everybody’s just people and i’m you know
26:43
one of the
26:43
one of the better things that’s kind of
26:45
irritating about me
26:46
is that like i don’t be judging people
26:49
you know what i’m saying like i’d be
26:51
like man maybe they just you know
26:54
whatever
26:54
you know what i’m saying i give people
26:55
the benefit of the doubt i hope the best
26:57
form
26:58
you know what i mean um and sometimes in
27:00
my initial moment i get upset and
27:01
emotional
27:02
but overall like i am
27:06
very much for everybody and i don’t
27:08
believe it’s anybody else’s
27:09
responsibility to take care of my
27:10
children
27:11
but but you know us you know
27:14
and so i don’t trust people with my
27:17
children
27:18
you know i’m saying very loosely like
27:19
that but i’m very proud of lexi
27:21
for how she handled everything and you
27:22
guys kept saying shout out lexi lexi
27:24
real one and all that
27:25
um you know but you know i i think that
27:28
you know even caring for lexi’s heart
27:30
like yo like
27:31
this is kind of what happens you know
27:33
what i’m saying i’m i’m sorry that she
27:34
had to deal with it
27:35
yeah because it’s like she didn’t ever
27:37
have to experience nothing like that you
27:39
know what i mean it’s so
27:40
um but you know what’s cool is i i do i
27:43
am glad this is like their first
27:45
experience because i feel like it’s
27:46
light
27:47
you know what i’m saying like you’re
27:49
talking about our parents getting rocks
27:50
thrown at them and yeah
27:51
all types of stuff like that you know
27:53
what i mean like they’re dealing with it
27:55
in a different way
27:56
but it’s still like lingering you know
27:57
what i’m saying um
27:59
so yeah man um i hope this is
28:02
encouraging i know this is kind of
28:03
longer
28:04
than what we usually do i hope uh that
28:06
you found some type of piece in
28:08
this content um and you know we just
28:11
want you to know like
28:14
we we are doing okay you know what i’m
28:16
saying and um
28:19
that says she’s not well i said i’m
28:20
doing okay
28:22
um but as a family i think we’re doing
28:24
pretty good
28:26
our our our children are doing fine
28:29
they are thriving thriving they are
28:33
as much as we know though yeah and
28:35
that’s the thing too is like
28:37
like part of me wants to be like hey how
28:38
you guys doing like
28:40
is that still in your mind like we don’t
28:42
know what thoughts are lingering from
28:44
that day
28:45
and it’s like do we bring it up or do we
28:47
just let them be
28:50
and i don’t know we’ll i guess we’ll
28:51
have to figure that out as time goes on
28:53
but
28:54
um i saw him not well but i think it’s
28:57
just
28:58
more so like the thoughts that i’m
29:01
having
29:02
about people and whatever so
29:06
yeah i think glenn i’m just grateful
29:11
he’s right like he
29:14
his heart for people is actually really
29:17
big
29:18
but but that doesn’t that doesn’t always
29:19
play to my strength and it doesn’t
29:22
it doesn’t and that’s true but i’m just
29:24
like i’m still
29:25
grateful and that’s what i’m saying how
29:26
we all process things differently
29:28
like i’m grateful for the perspective
29:30
that you
29:31
offer me because you’re right like
29:34
forgiveness doesn’t equal trust it
29:36
doesn’t equal access
29:38
and um and
29:41
yeah you can still love people from the
29:42
far side yeah and i don’t know how our
29:44
kids feel about going to the park again
29:46
i know you know i don’t know and that
29:48
was like one of their favorite parks
29:50
yeah and so like i don’t know like how
29:52
the children are gonna feel being like
29:53
seeing somebody and i think it’s gonna
29:55
take a little bit of time
29:56
but it might be that initial like uh i’m
29:58
good i played by myself
30:00
no thanks you know what i’m saying like
30:01
i’m good the crazy thing is they weren’t
30:03
even supposed to be at the park that day
30:05
like that morning their music class got
30:07
cancelled and
30:08
it was it’s just like the whole way that
30:10
that day worked out is just crazy all
30:12
right but i think i do think it look
30:14
looked out for the community
30:15
and the culture’s benefit you know what
30:17
i’m saying um
30:19
and even our children’s benefit like i
30:20
do believe that this is a strengthening
30:22
moment not a oh like i don’t like i
30:25
don’t think they see themselves as
30:27
victims oh not at all not
30:28
not at all you know what i’m saying and
30:30
i don’t see myself as a victim you know
30:31
what i’m saying
30:32
do you feel like a victim
30:37
all right all right then um yeah guys so
30:41
uh we just wanted to take a moment man
30:45
yeah protect your energy for sure like
30:47
oh that’s a word
30:50
protect your energy yeah and um we’re
30:52
going to move forward
30:53
so there there there are some things
30:55
kind of pending
30:57
um mental health-wise for me and so
31:00
uh you know
31:04
you know i know the good father season
31:06
has been going on for a while and so
31:07
we’re going to kind of
31:08
some summarize that um finish that up in
31:10
the next couple videos
31:12
and then uh you know we don’t be posting
31:14
consistently but we need a break bad
31:17
like i need to break bad um so just pray
31:20
for me man
31:21
i keep saying that and i know y’all kind
31:22
of like man this dude always saying he’s
31:23
taking a break and we put on videos but
31:25
he won’t be breaking either
31:26
so um just know that yeah
31:30
all right y’all we’ll see you guys next
31:32
time thank you guys so much for watching
31:33
protect your life
31:34
keep your network popping if you’re
31:36
fortunate enough to be doing like with
31:37
someone else make sure you watch this
31:38
video with them
31:39
if they’re not around share with them
31:42
diaries for black males
31:44
no mistakes no emotions blank pages tip
31:47
scales
31:47
and when the weight gets so heavy that
31:50
you can’t maintain the balance
31:51
and you want to speak the truth but they
31:53
would rather hit your silence
31:55
hold it in black man and please don’t
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