No one ever taught anyone how to handle the after effects of a gunman on campus.
What Happens After Terror?
Depression set in like an over-sized linebacker for the Patriots.
Depression set in like an over-sized linebacker for the Patriots.
The Almost All Clear
We have zero knowledge about true situational awareness and its consequences after the event.
We have zero knowledge about true situational awareness and its consequences after the event.
‘No One Dies Here Today’
The best place for me to be in under the door, so I become a door wedge.
The best place for me to be in under the door, so I become a door wedge.
The Tension Becomes Real
Thoughts travel at lighting speed in times of a gunman on campus.
Thoughts travel at lighting speed in times of a gunman on campus.
Weird Time for a Selfie
I come to the conclusion that if I take the couches and pile them up in front of the door it will not stop a gunman. But it will slow him/her down enough for me to prepare the next level of reaction.
I come to the conclusion that if I take the couches and pile them up in front of the door it will not stop a gunman. But it will slow him/her down enough for me to prepare the next level of reaction.
You Can Literally Feel the Fear. It Has a Feel. It has a Taste.
Everyone is on their cell phones reaching out to anyone and everyone they can think of to say either good-bye or tell someone they love them.
Everyone is on their cell phones reaching out to anyone and everyone they can think of to say either good-bye or tell someone they love them.
Barricaded in a Room with PTSD
"I was thrown out at 15 to live on the street of Anchorage Alaska in the middle of December. Where the first night I literally almost froze to death sleeping in a abandoned car at the of a street. "
I was thrown out at 15 to live on the street of Anchorage Alaska in the middle of December. Where the first night I literally almost froze to death sleeping in a abandoned car at the of a street.
And So It Begins
A woman runs down the far aisle and then comes up from behind saying: "This is not a drill. Gunman on campus."
A woman runs down the far aisle and then comes up from behind saying this is not a drill: “Gunman on campus.”
As the Clock Ticks Down to Terror
"I am doing the typical survivor mode of finding exits and people who could hurt me."
I am doing the typical survivor mode of finding exits and people who could hurt me.
Confronting the Demons That Hold Me
As my anxiety raises like my blood pressure, I just settle into the thoughts of improvement and realizing the self discipline that this will take.
As my anxiety raises like my blood pressure, I just settle into the thoughts of improvement and realizing the self discipline that this will take.
The Short Walk of a Long Journey
The safety of my car when I am in the midsts of anxiety attack is a siren call is bellowing me to come home and find safety.
The safety of my car when I am in the midsts of anxiety attack is a siren call is bellowing me to come home and find safety.
Overcoming Anxiety on the Journey to Mental Health
When social anxiety takes over a life.
When social anxiety takes over a life.
The Unexpected Journey
"How do I do this, and how can I make it to class if I cannot even make it through the front door. Open the car door, turn off the car, make sure you have wallet, keys, and hopeful demeanor."
“How do I do this, and how can I make it to class if I cannot even make it through the front door. Open the car door, turn off the car, make sure you have wallet, keys, and hopeful demeanor.”
My New Fear of Things
A survivor of sexual abuse is always looking in the rearview mirror.
A survivor of sexual abuse is always looking in the rearview mirror.
A Day That Starts With Hope and Measured Denial
Sun danced on barely browned grass.
Sun danced on barely browned grass.