Mental Health, vets, homelessness—and it started with men wearing large hats and riding horses, falsely claiming ownership of history that never was owned by white men.
Weight loss lessons–and the reason to survive.
Now to be clear this diet works for me because of my personality of all or nothing.
It is all about finding the diet you can stick with.
That number does haunt me, but differently than even I expected.
Now accept that truth over the 432 truth.
All of a sudden the door opens and a nurse is calling me back to finally find out what the revolutionary number will be for me.
On day 5 I no longer had the energy drops and was extremely clear headed I felt amazing.
Eternity is a long, long time.
Old school lifters and bodybuilders live by a code for food and training. That is as ingrained as the numbers on steel plates.
If you want something different, do something different.
I had to feel powerless for someone to feel strong. I had to feel terror for someone else to feel safe. But mostly I had to embrace death for someone else to feel alive.
I even started to question what a man was. The fear I felt and continued to feel made me believe I was just a small child again.
It is just now I know that my fears own me and cannot seem to stir up the bravery to make the change at that college.
Tablets lit up waiting for the fingerprints of life it so desires.
I am replaying the last few hours in my head like it is on loop.