Receiving praise from others when we feel negative about ourselves causes discomfort because it conflicts with our existing belief system.
For most of my adult life, I thought that I needed to act and feel specific ways to be accepted as the man that I believed I wanted to be.
What someone thinks of me is not my business and most importantly not something I should tie to my happiness.
You can’t plan your way out of addiction.
Choose to make the experience a good one because your circumstances don’t care how you feel about them. The only way to change them is through action, not wanting.
One of my earliest memories is of waking up one morning at dawn to find my brother standing in the kitchen, shirtless and covered in blood.